What up boys and girls. I'm back in S-town! Nah just kidding, I just feel lonely and here I am! :).
Today.. i want to talk about the things that just kill me over and over again. It's like a disease, i cant get rid of it.
I worry about to many things that shouldn't matter. The worst thing is, every movement i make, everything i do or am.. I always think im terrible (at it).
I feel like a creep, an ugly beast, a douche and a nobody at the same time. Why do i need love when i burn in the future. Why do i feel lonely and feels like no one wants to contact me, i possibly humiliate myself with my insecureness. I know it's just because im closed like a concrete door, but there's no way to open it.. :s.
I think depression is a disease, when you're in it it's not easy to get out of. Sometimes i try to crawl out of the well, but i always keep falling back.
Do any of you experience something similar like this?
I don't believe i will ever get rid of this, it's a mindset that just wont leave my mind.
