new to the site, but slightly old in my book
Your eyes a golden brown
Your hair long, fabulous, and soft
Lips so lush and red the taste of them is nothing more than pure morphine
Face, hands, and body soft as silk
The warmth of it feels so inviting.
Is this real, are you real, am I dead?
We lean in to share one last kiss, but…you fade…into the back of my memories.
For the longest time I’d seen your face everywhere but now I can’t even obtain the slightest expression.
For the longest time I’d heard your voice on the wind but now that voice has been drowned out by the rest of this world.
For the longest time I’ve smelled that damn lip gloss that drove me even closer to the warmth of your touch but now it has become bland…and odorless.
…and it drives me absolutely crazy. I fear I’ve finally fucking lost it.
My heart is now in tiny shards. Fuck Romeo and Juliet (you think they had turmoil) at least before they were buried the dagger was removed.
Me, I’m just an empty shell, a hallow of disgust, hatred, loneliness, and dark.
…and yet
I’d still offer you my black poisoned heart to you, in hopes that there is still some ounce of mercy or pity in you left that you’d be my tourniquet again. But then I realize you’re already gone.
For the longest time I’ve actually believed my own lies, that I could go on and forget you. Hell I shoved you aside.
God damn it, I wish I knew why the very thought of you has returned once more to hurt my chances with another. (I scream)
I need help
I need help
I need help
Please/ Somebody/ Anybody
I can’t take the pain any longer, it hurts to fuckin much!!!!
Mind still races with thoughts and dreams of your presence, but deep within I strive to believe that I can move on to a new. I don’t know how long it will take or how I’ll do it (it’s definitely not the first a piece of my hearts’ been broken…tho it is a first to be torn to shreds, I blame the bond we share so mentally, emotionally, and physically) but as long as I’m aside my Newly Bred other…I promise to be true to her and her alone.
So fuck you KK.
