fuck it all... its just how i feel noww...ha ha ha
well ... my now ex left me the day we had our first date for a long time.. for a chick he met for the first tiem that night... its been i think 2 months now... they live with eachother and shit.. wutever.. i think everything now is hitting me.... i started to talk to this guy i kno thew his brother... i like himn a lot... but he just stoped talkin to me and idk y.... lol then after that any guy who wants to talk to me is either far away... to old.... or later i find out has a girlfriend... so fuck it... i just want to be held again... thats all... i want to go be a damn teenager that i never hav been.. i wanna date.. but fuck it allllll right?? i dont kn o wut to do... all i do is think about my ex... we were together for four years... and it hurts soo fuckin much i just want it all to go away..