So my life is finally getting interesting...
and it's not really what it's all cracked up to be.
i always wanted something to do with my life... instead of just sitting around all day reading. i think i changed a lot over the summer, i grew up a lot... realized a lot of things about myself, and about people that i thought i really knew. people that i thought i was close to. people that i thought were my family. i've learned a lot about the way people work, for better or worse.
but really my life has completely turned topsy-turvy... suddenly instead of wanting to move to las vegas after high school, i want to move to los angeles (more opportunities for schooling, plus personal reasons & family issues). i've never really had a lot of friends either. my best friend moved to louisiana last year, and now that i finally have found someone else that i would truly call a best friend, he's going to graduate this year, and move to santa cruz for college. what am i going to do then? i find myself thinking about all of this shit and it's so sudden, really... it's odd. the future holds a lot for me, and honestly it scares the shit out of me.
i don't know... people just confuse me.
