Slipknot

Could someone please tell me why it's sooo wrong to feel good about the way you look? Some people are idiots, i was told that "it's seems as if you choose ugly friends purposely" what?! don't call my friends ugly cause' they are not.

This i was told last night at a w.a.s.p show, some chick had seen my page at a community online and felt that she had the right to come up to me and say that i'm full of myself and that i choose to I choose to surround myself with ugly people to make myself look better. I have no idea where the hell she got that from cause' i don't walk around thinking that "i can't be seen with you, you look to damn good" And I definitely don't think any of my friends are ugly.

So what if i like to post pictures of myself, pictures that i think look good. I look in the mirror sometimes and i just think "damn girl, you look goood" is that so wrong? Perhaps, instead i should find as many flaws as i can and just focus on those.

It's ridiculous that as soon as someone doesn't say that they are "too fat" or "my nose is too big" you're automatically full of youself? I'm not perfect but i'm very happy with what i got. When i was younger i always felt too tall and too skinny, because of years of karate training i was pretty fit for my age so people, for some reason, made fun of me for that. And when you're 14, that shit hurts. It wasn't untill i turned 18 that i started to like what i saw in the mirror. Probably cause' 12 years of being bullied and being secluded was finally over when i graduated. but you know, fuck em', they still live in that shit hole, i don't, some have turned to drugs and others are just so fucking bored that they decided to get pregnant cause' that the new "hot thing" to do, hmm, wonder what will happen when it's no longer in fashion to have a kid on your arm. I mean come on now, THAT is not a good reason to get pregnant at such a young age.

Anyways, another thing that i don't get is why chicks always have to be the ones that gives you "the look" you know, that "and who the hell do you think you are" look whenever you're out at let's say a club. I'm not gonna steal your boyfriend, just chill ok? now that i think about it, men are kind of weird to, a lot of the times when i go out i might just talk to some random guy, cause' you do talk to people when you're out at a party or something, and in the middle of everything they can say " i have a girlfriend!" ehm...ok? i didn't say or do anything that might have suggested that i wanted something more, what the hell, it's like they think that I think that i can have anyone. I'm not looking for anything. I like things just the way they are. Actually, there is one thing that could make me happier, my full sleeve tattoos that i've wanted for so long! but it's gonna cost me a lot more than i can afford right now, so i'd better start putting away some money every month, it's gonna take forever :P once you've had some work done you just want more! haha.

Once again i'm just complaining about everything, but i ain't got nothing to write about unless i complain :D If everyone could just get along i would'nt have to bitch about stuff like this. Well, i'm gonna go and get my beauty sleep now, i still had a couple of days of paid vacation left since i only used 4 of the 5 weeks we get, this summer, so i decided that i needed a break from work so i took the rest of the week off, which means, i can stay up late and sleep all day :P my room mate moved out a couple of weeks ago so i have the place all to myself, at last! Totally of topic i know, but i turns out, i CAN write about other stuff instead of just complaining, but it's not as interesting to read about XD sweet warm bed, here i come!