another poem of how i am feeling at the moment.. things are getting out of control...
Fantasy
In this reality I feel so untrue
My heart is fading into a darker world
Don’t want to live a real life
Wishing only to vanish away into my thoughts
Self centered, poisonous words plaguing my mind
All thoughts lead back to my existence.
Why am I here
What is my purpose?
I’m a useless flower decaying in my acidic thoughts
My mind is the killer of my healthy body
Turning me into a rotting soul of despair
I can’t turn back, it’s too late
What is going on?
My decisions are untamed and out of place
Why do I do these things?
Why am I like this?
How do I change my sick ways of destruction
My body pleads for safety, for a change in life.
I cannot seem to get myself on track to live a real life
My mind is wandering constantly into a fantasy
Where I have gone I cannot say, if I will return, I do not know.
Will someone wake me up from my dream?
Before I fall to rock bottom where I will shatter
My life has a path ahead lit with dim lights of doom
Is there hope for the lost?
