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Killing to live no more.

November 28, 2009

Any persons death deminishes us all. Do not ask for whom the bell tolls, it tolls for thee.

My current trip to Moscow was not planned, it is the direct result of one of my family members betrayal of me.

In my military career as a sniper, I made enemies. While on the trip to Egypt for my great aunts funeral I was betrayed to one of those enemies, by one of my family. While making my way to Moscow I was forced to end several lives to survive.

Every life I have taken has had a profound effect on me. Some would say that this is a good thing, because to feel nothing would make me a psychopath. Others have said that only a psychopath could have done what I have done.

I am not sure that what I have done can ever be forgiven, and every death I have caused has deminished me to the point that I do not really feel that I belong among the living.

I will not take my own life, nor will I defend my life by takeing anothers.

Damian Seth Dragonov

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xx_pin_xx
Draftees

xx_pin_xx

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Pick me up from the gutter with a gentle kiss,Then rips out my heart to show me, how black it is!

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Posted 2 years ago by xx_pin_xx
no1 said kiling humanbeins is right. but you were forced to do something inorder to survive, and now u regret it... wats done is done and there isnt nothing u can do about it....ur the only one that can help ur self by forgiving urself and we all learn from our mistaks its just that sometimes we make greater mistakes that are harder to deal with but not impossible.
APEGO
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APEGO

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Fuck people, I hate people.

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Posted 2 years ago by APEGO
Right now, as i sit on my bed, I'm thinking to myself how you were able to survive this pain. Your the strongest person I know Damian. I don't know how you did it, but you did and thats amazing. As for the seven people who died at your hands, it was either you or them. And I'm soooo glad that you decided that they would be the ones to die, not you.

I love you Damian.
RebelDrummerGirl
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OUT DESTROYING EVIDENCE! Be back soon!

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Posted 2 years ago by RebelDrummerGirl
Hey there! I feel your pain and am sorry for the conflict you have inside yourself. There is one thing that I have learned from life and that is it doesn't matter what other people think of what you've done cause no one has walked in your shoes. Just know this, the only person that needs to forgive you for what you've done is YOU. What you think of yourself is the most important, not anybody else, cause we have to live with ourselves for the rest of our life. You did what you had to do which is what anybody would do. Just sometimes, there are days that are uglier than others. I wish you peace. Take care. :)
thirteen_of_nine
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thirteen_of_nine

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Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves... Inside my shell I wait and bleed... And it waits for me.

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Posted 2 years ago (changed 2 years ago) by thirteen_of_nine
i'm not sure of what to say kid. you know how i feel about what you have done, and don't forget who awaits you in Tokyo. dad
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Posted 2 years ago by Jordan93
Wow, dude. I'm sorry for your pain. But, to me it sounds like you were made to do what you had to do against your own will. I'm sorry you had to experience something so drastic. Stay (sic), always.