Ever dream that someday something you have wanted for so long comes true and then finally when it does it's not what you expected at all?
On Thursday June 11, 2009 I finally got to meet the man I have been dreaming about my entire life....my biological dad. It's not at all what I expected and I'm not sure how to feel about that. My step-sister who is my cousin by blood (no there is no incest on that equation) pulled me out of my hotel room in Webster City when he was checking in and I got to meet his wife Lolita and him. I thought that since I haven't seen him before that he would give me the biggest hug there was and not want to let me go, but it was just kind of a quick hug and "glad you could make it" thing. The situation for me being there was shit because it was a great grandmother of mine that died, that's why I was there, but at least I have met him now. His wife is sooooo awesome and nice that I could totally get along with her and no problems. When I got home on Saturday I just cried for 2 hours straight because i had so many different emotions going thru me at the time. To be surrounded by all of these people that I have no idea who they are look so much like me. They even have the same LOVe for music that I do even though it might not be the same bands. My cousin that I met is 18 and has been wriiting his own stuff and recording it. I'm just amazed, sad, excited, confused still and not sure what other emotions this has stirred up in me. I thought that meeting him would finally fill the void that I have carried for so long, but I can still feel it there. Why?
