just found out that my father who i have not talked to in 10 yrs. has Cancer and is going to die. soon.
Well it is Saturday morning and I am watching Pearl harbor ( the dogfighting scene) on the encore channel and I got Slipknot playing. The last thing I remember is trying to tell him he is a grandfather and him saying I have no son. Ten years and many lost brain cells have passed. I have a beautiful wife, a daughter who looks just like her, and my birthday is tomorrow. Last week my sister calls and said if there was anything I wanted to say to my dad that i should call him soon, because he does not have much time. You see I did not know that 2 yrs. ago he had cancer. Now it is back in his lungs, pancreais, liver, and not going without taking my dad's life first. Fuck You God! So I called him and he got to talk to his granddaughter. I am so happy to have my dad back even for one minute. so as a birthday present to myself I am calling him tomorrow. The fucked up thing is when that day happens I will have to morn in TX. you see he lives in FL will be put in the, fuck it, I can not afford it. I know I am knot the first who this has happened to. I just needed to do this and if I was going to my maggot family was the place to put words to paper. ha, ha, i just made my self laugh.
