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Apok23
Male, 26
nashville, TN, US
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You don't always know where you stand 'Til you know that you won't run away
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02/07/12

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  • MyChaos

    February 7, 2012 0 Comments

    my sadness here pain comes again alone in this world no one a friend my descent in to hell this thing called my life filled with agony hatred and strife once my life was a blossom fresh lovely the scent sweet now wilted faded and ugly rotting stench overpowering where did the beauty go? I'm caged in this sad and pathetic city can't find my way out.... my dreams let me wander.... yet always I wake.. in this hell alone longing for more than I can ever find here still afraid of leaving all this behind What would happen ?

  • Severed

    February 7, 2012 0 Comments

    "Severed"

    And we hide behind, Lies, anger, Hate they shoo love away, Build shells of ourselves outside, It shelters body from cold reigns of reality,

    Come on, Step out, of your rind, assemble strength, focus, Release and run to me you can never look back to the visions from the past they fade and wilt in time, You've got to just trust me to hold your hand through, Then I turn and walk away,

    Eclipse you (Cut you away), And bleed you strip you of your states of ain soph aur, Eclipse you (Cut you away), I spit up on my plate and I push everything away, From me And we sever all ties, It creates disruption midst circle of friends, I become the sacrifice, Spare your life and leave me to my misery,

    Get off the cross, and save yourself, run away Run now get away from me if I can get my grip I'll pull you down into the hell I call my head you'll never get away I sit down in my ugly place and build walls out of fragments from my past of all the people that I needed and loved that walked away, You've got to just trust me to hold your hand through then I'll turn and walk away

    I walk under the clouds of gray, Sphere of storms in my head,

    I'm trapped again in endless rain I divorce the thoughts of you I love with me, I divorce your innocence and my guilt, I divorce the lying sellout confidence, I'm divorcing every mother fuckin' thing I divorce the love bled meaningless, I divorce the makeshift harmony, I divorce the taunting acts of violence, I divorce the pastime of jealousy, I divorce control, I divorce the faith, I divorce the virtue, I divorce the rain, I divorce the excuse, I divorce the greed, I divorce the need, I divorce iniquity in this mother fuckin' bullshit life, Just want it all to go away, Just want to run away to die, take it, myself, my life Text book fucking mental, off me and pitch me in a hole

    I'll always be your shadow, And veil your eyes from states of ain soph aur, I can't be the hero anymore, I spit up on my plate and then I turn and walk away, I spit up on my plate and I disrupt the family, I spit up on my plate and I sever the entity, And I feel your warm sun on my face Separate .

    Eclipse you and bleed you strip you of your states of ain soph aur, I need you, It's always been this way, I push it all away, From me

  • Royal tart

    February 6, 2012 0 Comments

    "This cosmic dance of bursting decadence and withheld permissions twists all our arms collectively, but if sweetness can win—and it can—then I'll still be here tomorrow to high-five you yesterday, my friend. Peace."

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